I wonder..

A few days ago, the microscope light bulb in the satellite lab in the ER where I am based, blew.

i informed the necessary people that I now could not analyze the urine samples, including the nurses. Then after help came, and the microscope was fixed, I quickly told the nurses as I was heading off to shoot some s to the main lab, that the microscope was 'up & running'.

They were quiet.

Err, wht is 'up and running'?

*smacks head*

Err, microscope OK liao. *smiley face*

Oh.....

So I went about my day thinking, hmm, maybe she just never heard it before..

Yesterday, the blood analysis machine decided to have motor sheath error. :S So I the cancer centre nurses asked me to get it fixed, and I call the engineer for it, bla bla bla...it gets fixed.

Being the nice person that I am (hahahaha), I called the ancer centre and told them that the instrument is 'up & running' (mind u, not intentional, it just came out)

*pause*

means the machine is not ok?

Err, means the machine ok dy..

Oooo..ok ok thanks!

*puzzled*

Is it just me, or..you know....:S



*thinks*

Hmmm

It was Nov 14, and I was cracking my head thinking who's birthday did I forget...I knew it was supposed to be someone important...I knew it was Yvonne, Laysha, and I just really cudnt remember the other..

Nov 22, came, it was Prem's birthday.
Nov 23, Cheese,
Nov 24, mom and she flies off to Perth

And I still forget who it was...




and today I viewed his blog after eons...


OOps!!! It was his! My mind has been working at blocking him and I have been so busy and he has managed to stay out of my life so much, dat I forgot his birthday!!


I forgot his birthday!!

I forgot that he was someone important a long time ago.

It is really sad when a relationship is broken.

And this will never mend, like an open door..the halter is placed there, snugly.

Good luck to him den in his life and aspirations. Sigh.

Random

I was on pm shift in the ER yesterday, and I was called to the resuscitation room to draw blood from this middle-aged lady. It was obvious she was in great discomfort..from what I eavesdropped...she had appendicitis removal, and sometimes, it tapes to the wall after surgery...and this would be a life long problem. She will have to abstain from any hard food, and spicy ones too. :S

Sad is it not?

Updates??

Well, things have been pretty crazy in Pearly-land..

Work: I am officially confirmed as of July 2009 (letter came in October.....efficient eh?). I have a crappy boss, who infringes on our rights as employees. He has zero EQ, thinks leaders must go for all hands on trainings, so leaders will have all the knowledge and hence obtain the respect of other. He is racist against non chinese. He is clueless on managing ppl (ooo...that's the zero EQ part), his daily routine is stand around, checking OJTs, and telling everyone that their leave aren't approved. Okay, enough of dissing the boss....I have more responsibilities now. I have started ER calls, meaning I have to work in the satelite lab in the ER. Main job is to run urine analysis, and draw blood. Next month, I will have my first day-call (working on a public holiday means only 3 people running most of the lab). Work is awesome. :) Ooo...we have a Christmas exchanging of gifts too....we pick out names from a box, and I got a male colleague.........*help* what do I buy him??!! Suggestions??!!

Family: ME MISS MY SISTER!!!!!!!!! So I am headed off to Perth for CHRISTMAS!!!! BOOYAHHHHHHHHHHHH!! My oldest bro, my mom and I will be there for Christmas. It's exciting. I do feel sad that my second bro and his family would be here though....I will miss Sanjay banjay pudding and pie....(nephew)..And I need to buy Matthew some pressies....Hmmm......he likes reading, especially encyclopedic stuff....Emma-bamma is a typical lil girl....shall I get her her first barbie in the footsteps of her very happening, beautiful, intelligent aunt?? Hahahahha....Maybe maybe...:P Relationship with the family has been ok. Prem has been very supportivee and sensitive to my struggles, whch is very comforting. I have been a lil more open to the family, being honest by admitting dat I do get very lonely in KL. I guess it helps dat they noe..

Church: It's the liturgical new year! It almost feels like a brand new start...A new beginning, another chance to do things right. I have made my resolutions for the year, need some fine tuning, but i have a rough estimate. I am definitely gonna surround myself with healthier people. Sieve out people I tend to deviate with. Got a few opportunities to serve, am just gonna weight and view my options. Neville and the catechism crew, caroline and the alpha gang, and daniel, gabby & viv and the choir. Looking at other communities to belong to...individual prayer is important, but community prayer also is needed...

Etc: Well, there is a person, whom I should not be seeing, who really clicks with me. And it sux dat circumstances would not allow something to grow out of this, but I am just grateful for his presence itself. The very fact he exists gives me hope somehow, or the sweet reminder that there is nothing wrong with me. Oh well...



So dat's dat for aquick summary...........ooo....might be going for ne-yo's concert in january!! AWESOME....(I dun fancy ne-yo, the awesome part was for th concert....Hahaha)

Thank you Rihanna

You can't play on broken strings

How do you you react to this?

You can't play on broken strings,
You can't feel anything,
that your heart don't want to feel,
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts, the lies worse,
So how can I give anymore,
When I love you a little less than before..

Damn terasa wei... Lol

Thinking again

I know...Althea has said it a million times over..that I think too much..its true...but...

I met Fr Chris after some time, and he invited me to attend Teh Tarik & Theology! We had Fr Aloysius, a Jesuit to impart his knowledge on God, who He is. Fr. Al says often our image of God is that which is painted by our parents at a young age. If a mother says, if you steal something, and you think no one knows, God actually sees it, because He can see everything. The child would in turn grow up having the image of an ever watchful God. If a child has an abusive father, and we say God is the Almighty Father....well then....:)

Anyways, a guy said that he felt that God was not a person, but an entity without a particular form, existent in people, for example, say God is Love and we all have lve in our hearts...So that is what God is. Then Fr Al says that many books have been written about God, and Thomas Aquinas says that all he has written about God is true, and untrue. He shares the story of St Thomas thinking about God and trying to figure Him out, and he sees this boy by the sea on the beach. And this boy dug a little hole in the sand and was pouring the sea water into it. So St Thomas asks the boy what he was doing. The boy says he was trying to put the sea into that hole. And St Thomas says no, you cant do that because the sea is immense! And the boy turns and says, so it is with God! He is like the ocean and your mind is like this hole. You cn never fill it with the understanding of God. And the little boy disappears.

So another girl at TTT asked why doo natural disasters happen? And she felt that it is because we havent prayed hard enough. And then Fr Al says that God is not a puppeteer that chooses what and what not to happen. And I asked would it be indifferent to think that life on earth was a journey, and trouble and trials are just events to prepare us for eternal life? Like God could have stop it, but He allows things to happen as a test. Than Fr Al rebuts me by sayingthe idea of God being able to do everything is another thing ingrained into us from a early age, but is it true? So Fr Al says that God cannot do everything because He cannot contradict himself. And another asks about Divine Intervention, and Fr Al shares that though the Church teaches otherwise, he feels tht there is no such thing.He cannot believe that God will listen to some prayers, and not to others? That God will chose whose prayer of deliverance from illness he listen to?


So, I started thinking. What IF it is true? What if God cannot do everything?I do agree that God canot contradict Himself. He cannot make Hell into a Heaven and vice versa. He can't do evil. And since God has given us humans the gift of choice, would he change the heart of someone to do His bidding? What if I loved a man, and I felt he was the one for me. But because I look unattractive, and I don't excite this man, he chooses not to consider me. What if he is the one God wanted for me, but this guy chooses to go to the prettier, petite ones, and when i pray that if he is the one, let me noe, God cannot do anything because God has given him a free will to choose, and hence God cannot contradict himself and force this guy to come to realise that he would be happy with me?

hence it has been bothering me..
But Felicita put it really wel today..


She said, if Jesus "ask you shall receive, seek you shall find, knock and it shall be open to you" what would he not be able to do everything?...


THINK THINK THINK