Phlebotomy

Well, I had a pretty rough day at work today (the first time I will admit to that). reason being Attempt #2 at drawing blood was a miserable failure, attempt #3 & #4 were near misses, attempt #6 was sheer luck and attempt #7 was painful!! :S

According to Wikipedia:

Phlebotomy is the act of drawing blood either for testing or transfusion. It is a skill employed by physicians and many professionals in allied health fields, including nurses, medical assistants, paramedics, cardiac physiologists (UK) and clinical laboratory scientists.

So this is what I am to do for the whole of May...Wish me luck... I really need it..:S

Line-up for today:

It talks about the "wheels of health" complete with an assessment sheet on how healthy you are. Dr Walt Larimore considers a Health to be best defined by WHO - Health is a state of complete physical, mental and social well-being and not merely the absence of disease or infirmity.

However, the also thinks that Spirituality is the fourth wheel that completes a person. As I have only started today, before my Phlebotomy Disaster, I am very interested to know how is he going to fortify his philosophy. He has so far been giving random, poorly elaborated cases to prove his point. I will just see how it goes I guess, cause the concept does interest me.

Then, I'll have to finish the movies I have rented:

(Half way, so I hope I finish it...:S)

Gin Jhen recommended this....we shall we......:P looks very familiar...

DISNEY!! :D

Oh yes, this is because I found this awesome place where I can rent vcds/dvds...makes my boring life a WHOLE lot better...:P And due date is tmr!! :S

Good luck to me again!


Signing out,

Mrs John Abraham

(Yes, it's still John Abraham season...:P)

Getting better

Settling.

I have a more fixed routine now. And it helps. Mentally stronger, emotionally healthier...physically too.. Gotta work on the spiritual aspects though..Life is almost perfect right now. Almost. :)


Although it has been long since I have sat down with my Bible and prayed on a passage and meditate, I have always been talking to Him. The beauty of believing in what I believe in is that your God is your friend, your brother, your father, your purpose, your happiness, your everything! And I thank the Lord for giving me the faith I have. It is so easy to just push all my thoughts aside and talk to Him, in the car, in the lab, on the treadmill... It is almost like small conversations with this person who is with you at all times, going through everything you are going through. Still, I need something more solid to complete my life.


And this is the beauty of it all... I have come to accept that my life as it is now is complete, especially with more time in prayer. I have been keeping away from most vices, and I feel very very inclined to reconcile with Him. And it is always a joyous when that divide is bridged.

Just finished Tuesdays with Morrie (2 evenings of nothing to do in my lab did the job. :)). There was an evening where Coach talked about forgiveness. It's everywhere, the hint to forgive.


I know I am hurting the two of them (ex and his current gf). And a very wise person told me that the reason the ex is unhappy has a lot to do with the fact that I have not truly forgiven them. Probably the same reason why there is unhappiness in that relationship. Could not believe the kid left the rally I attended just because she could not bear to see the hate in my eyes...When the fact is, I know she would b so uncomfortable to see me, that I would have just avoided her and discarded the fact that she was there in the first place. Her presence do not bother me anymore. It's so trivial. Besides I can have a professional relationship with her, just not a personal one. Is that not good enough for now? I cannot say I hate them.. I care for them, I ask about them, just that I just do not want to come to terms with the fact they are together.

My ex has gone to the point of blaming himself for what I have turned out to be. But i told him that it was my choice, a choice probably made easier by the circumstances, but mine in the end. I have come to terms with most of the theory of things...but living it out is so challenging, and that is exactly where I need Him for the strength to do it..it is beyond human abilities..need divine help..

But yes, life is better. Life is perfect already. Almost I mean. I hope I have reached the point where I am happy being single and me. Been doing all the girlie thingies that make me happy....So what if I am a girlie girl! :)

I have been watching all the chick flicks, been pampering myself with long showers, nice perfume, facial care... that makes me happy. I do not care if some would like to think me shallow..So be it. I know what I am good at and where my weaknesses are. I am complete as I am..and with this new security, life is getting better.

Anyways, been on a movie spree....watched this show..Agnus, thongs and perfect snogging. Cute show for teenage girls. For us older ones, it is a good reminder of the teenage years..much happier times. :)

Very carefree, and dreaming was about all we did. Lol. Fun no brainer for me. :) The rest are not really worth mentioning...though I must tell Veena dat i have FINALLY watched Dhoom....not 2 mind you..the first one!!


I'm so in Love with John Abraham...He's my husband, btw...:)
Isn't he a darling?

Signing out,

Mrs John Abraham! :P

Dear Diary

Everything feels like a roller coaster ride..especially the effect of these events on me..

At work, I am in a new bench, haematology..blood bench in lay man terms.. work is very manual, and requires skills at identifying blood cells especially. I am especially annoyed that the bench lacks system, and is so freaking hormonal! The very reason why I hated the idea of living with women..can't stand the hormones!


I am learning NOTHING there!! It s because the bench leader cannot control her nerves, and is so uncertain of herself, and one particular bench member is annoying! Thank God i like them as people, not as colleagues.. and I thank God I am still capable to separate the two identities..aih..

And it does not help that I am sick again. Tonsillitis I think. Went for a praise n worship session ytd night n now I can taste something like blood when I cough..throat is real sore...and I am not gonna get well especially after ths wonderful rally

Which annoys me, cause I feel they doing it all wrong! This is not how you prepare for a rally... Sometimes I feel like shouting out loud, "Lord, when is it time? How long more do I have to endure my desert??"


Does not help that my personal life is chaotic too...Do not know how to word it...wait la....eng onn my dear housemate gonna get our internet set up!! :D

signing out n back into bench full of hormones..:(

many many things..

Well, it is a whole complex mesh of events, the past week..And it's Monday again. It is do darn good to just spend a relatively quiet weekend in Subang, away from the PLUS highway..which means away from rushing home to Melaka, settling 5-8 family errands and issues at one go, and listening to the vents and rants at home about the family, money, government, planet, universe, galaxy...you get the picture....


Anyhoo...

I messed up at work (or so I thought). Manage to get a probe to puncture a sample cup! And carry it along the rest of the processes.. :) Thank God, the probe supply is almost infinite, and the mistake made was a relatively common one. *phew*. Tomorrow shall be my last day at the Clinical Chemistry bench, and I hope I picked up enough to get all the papers signed. Am seriously thinking of requesting to be rotated another round once I am done with this one...


Gym drama is a freaking saga! First, another trainer, V has taken over me because M was not doing a good job keeping to appointments. Then, M has been spreading rumours about me and V...malicious ones. Thank God M has a reputation as a huge liar (pathological one man...) and people only half believes what he says..(Lucky me). Went for a bbq with more trainers..sheesh...it is a conspiracy...they make you eat so you pay them to give you more personal training sessions! LOL. Not falling for that one guys....:P but I have to say, the gals who prepared the food (chefs...literally! FnB lecturers now..) did an awesome job. I have never tasted better bbq-ed chicken!!!! :)


Well, the personal life has taken about a million steps backwards.. Totally decided to cut Club Guy from my life. Do not want to be mean, but seriously, I need a sharper man. Yesterday was the last straw. No more.. I do not care about J man either..a waste of time.


Gosh..no time.....cont tmr... :)

Tears

I cant stop crying.

I read his blog, as I always do.

Just save me please..

McLeod's Daughters

Initially, I never appreciated the series, but somehow (I think I'm older now) of late, I am beginning to identify with them..and the struggles they go through are real. Today's episode, Grace was "happy" having flings, and Marcus disapproved of it. They gave each other a good lashing for minding each others business..

So they went on arguing as they were unsaddling the horse, and off the horse runs away, and they give chase, and both fall into an old mine shaft.

So, two people, stuck in a mine shaft, and it's getting late, and they're wet, and she starts shivering. So Marcus goes to the rescue, gives her his jacket, and try to make her think happier thoughts...and she spills...

She is in a fling with a man who only wants to screw her because she was heartbroken by her former bf. She starts crying and asks, why did her ex leave her? What did she do wrong? and the jackpot was, am I unlovable?

In truth, that is the biggest insecurity most girls have. In that stupid short few minutes, they caught the essence of female insecurity. Are we so bad that we are unlovable?


many will say, don't talk nonsense la...of course you are lovable...and some idiots will even say, your parents love you, your friends love you (That's when you ought to SMACK their heads!!). Yea, yea, we all know that, but to be loved exclusively for the person you are. To be wanted to be part of another persons life. That's like the biggest compliment a person can get..


Oh well, there were many other issues, female relationship issues put out on the series, but today, I just wanna share on that particular one...


Have a great weekend buddies....

muah!

Fragile

Can't believe how fragile I still am..

Yesterday I met a real old friend, DT..someone real close to heart,only he did not realize it...


He came over to my apartment, and we were chilling at the poolside and caught up old times...we were talking about people we both knew, how they have turned out to be. It was real nice, to have a bit of the better times come back to me. Long and deep into the conversation, we found out that a mutual close friend, JT has been backstabbing DT. I said it was true as JT told me bad stuff about DT's gf the last the last time we met. What happened next was something I did not expect..

DT was so pissed, and he said that JT almost cost him his cousin. And I was sympathetic, but I told him that JT was never credible, and honest to god, I did not remember the details JT told me as he has always been full of crap. Well, DT than questioned my intentions of inquiring after his gf. I was in disbelieve, but worse I broke into tears..

DT realized soon enough he should not have questioned my sincerity in my relationship with him. We have been friends for almost 11 years now..and he has always been close to heart. He really played a big role in shaping me to who I am today. But I knew that it was in his nature to clarify, and hence the seemingly distrusting question. I knew he was not angry with me, but the way he posed the question was hurtful, and I CRIED!!


Today I can laugh about it, but it got me thinking how fragile I actually am. I know to many, I come across and confident, strong and as a person who knows what she wants and how to get what she wants. but the truth it I am fragile. The very same reason Rubern hurt me so bad, Steph hurt so bad, ET, AT, AH and so many hurt so much.

guess that just means I need to toughen up.Oh well.. People are just insensitive and inhuman...

DT, no no, you don't fall into that category, k? :) Love ya to bits! :D