Christmas..this time with Wine + Rum

I have just had too much wine and rum! Hehe.. Happy...and..a little more outspoken!!

Haha...Who would have thought. The good guy from Church was decent, God-fearing, charismatic speaker...was just having fun fishing! Lol.

Yes, yes..expecting people to be better than they are is a weakness of mine! :) I see the good, the possibility of better in another human. Believing that they can be much more than they are has built so many people..and disappointed me as many times..if not more..and the latest! Haha...My greatest gift Christmas gift ever! :) Eyes have been opened! The good Catholic guy is less decent than my atheist friend..I who always thought I ought to find a person who shares my faith might just be better off with a person who does not believe in God! Seriously! Haha.

I am not bitter, just amused! :) Well, I did fancy him, of course! Fantastic speaker, smart, talented, sweet, yada yada...Oh well..just not so decent as I thought. Not particularly a gentleman.

Althea and Erick were right! J is trouble from the start!

Lesson learned:

People aren't as nice as they appear to be..... LOL.


And to think I would have learned after AH & AT in Caritas, or RC & SS in my personal life, or R & K in cradle, or GSD for that matter!

Please remind me that the world is not as pretty as it seems..

I love ya Althea & Erick...Lydia..I might need to you take up that offer. Lol.

But, a less optimistic pebbles just ain't me! I'll just keep believing in rainbows and butterflyz cuz there are those who are worth that believe! :)

Mmhmn mmhmn
Lately when I look into your eyes i realize
You're the only one I need in my life
Baby I just don't know how to describe
How lovely you make me feel inside

You give me butterflyz
Got me flying so high in the sky
I can't control the butterflyz

You give me butterflyz
Got me flying so high in the sky
I can't control the butterflyz

It seems like the likely thing
From the start you told me I would be your queen
But never had I imagined such a feeling
Joy is what you bring
I want to give you everything

You give me butterflyz
Got me flying so high in the sky
I can't control the butterflyz

You give me butterflyz
Got me flying so high in the sky
I can't control these butterflyz

You and I are destiny
I know now you were made for me

Oh oh ooh
I can't control it
It's driving me
Taking over me and I.....

You give me butterflyz
Got me flying so high in the sky
I can't control the butterflyz

You give me butterflyz
Got me flying so high in the sky
I can't control the butterflyz

You give me butterflyz
Got me flying so high in the sky
I can't control the butterflyz

You give me butterflyz
Got me flying so high in the sky
I can't control the butterflyz

(OOhh I Know I Know)

You give me something
I jus cant deny
Something thats so sweet
I just cant control the way i feel (Repeat twice)

I almost don't believe her words here, but it remains a beautiful potential...Yes... I am in love with BEING in love! :) ENJOY!!

Merry Christmas again!!

Christmas

This is the Christ I know and love..

The birth of Christ.

That is what Christmas is about.

Or what it should be about.


Why is His birth significant? It is because His coming means we are going to be saved. His birth meant Him taking a human form, with human needs, emotions, and thoughts. He became a normal human being. Yet He was God, and He existed at the beginning of time. He was God made Man. He took flesh as ours, blood as ours. He became mortal, so He could pay the ultimate sacrifice for the human race. We on our own would have never made it.

God is Love. Love is God. CARITAS!

Love was the very reason he bridged that gap that broke communion with God. The cross, his death was the ultimate sacrifice! No more blood needed to be shed. Our omnipotent God died for our sins yesterday, today and tomorrow. He is there at the beginning, He is there at the end. He came for the sinners, not for the righteous. He went out to save that one lost sheep and left the 99 behind. He ran out to greet the prodigal son who took his share and spent it all, and He kissed him.

He is the God who forgives sinners. Who gives hope. Happy are we who have that hope in us. For we have true joy. A promise of divine mercy. Our God is a just God, but His commandment is Love. That is the ultimate. Love. No greater Love can any man have than to lay down His life for a friend.

He was born on this day so He could lay His life down for us. Sinners who will sin and sin yet again. He is our role model. He makes it possible to live in grace. Ask and you shall receive divine strength to overcome our bodily weaknesses. God only knows how weak I am.

So yes, He was born on this very day, so we could be saved.

I am lucky that I believe. I thank God that I believe.

I do not know how to preach. I do not know how to make you see.

But what I do know is that my life is a testament to His Love and Mercy.

My prayer tonight is that He shows Himself to you as He did to me.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Value$

Ah, I forgot to mention..

Yesterday I spent the day with an old crush..Since he does not have a car in KL, I went to fetch him from his room. He happens to live in (in his own words) a hell hole in the middle of the city. The room he is renting is right next to a brothel.

Initially when I he told me about it, it was funny. He has a way of livening up anything, that gem..

But he was still at college when I went to get him, so I waited in Fellie's car and was observing the neighbourhood. Of course, my eyes strayed to that very, very unassuming purple shoplot.

It wasn't like the other shoplots. Most shops had huge doors..like u know..restaurants, and car/bike workshop. If it were saloon or an optometrist, it would probably be a glass wall, and doors. It would have it's company's name bright and clear for all to see. Established places would have employees coming out to greet ya with a warm welcome and a cheerful smile..

But this purple shoplot had no cheer whatsoever. It had two openings, leading into a poorly lit walkway. It did not have any signboards hanging outside it's entrance, just some old banner which I did not pay attention to..

There was a chinese man outside..Thin man..greying hair, white singlet, standing around. He goes up to men to walk the pavements, like a salesman trying to sell something. If there isn't anyone there, he stands by one of the two doors that flank the shoplot. Nearby was a plump lady, who I presume worked there, but more as a pimp and not a..service provider.

Then I started paying more attention to the flow of people. I was observing that place for about half an hour, and in that time, I saw at least 5 men walk in like as though they were regulars. They were mostly foreign looking. One group consisted of 3 men, and the rest were on their own. There I saw a Malay looking chap. Young guy, probably in his mid twenties going in as well. The thing was he could have walked into my university and I'd take him for one of the students there. I also saw an elderly man, old enough to be anyone's grandpa coming out of there. Some of the customers going in and out looked filthy. As much as I do not like assuming, they looked as though they would be definite carriers of STDs. They looked like the people who loitered the streets of pudu during public holidays.

I guess, the worse part was how well the business was. How other people, non-customers, walked pass that shoplot like it did not exist. How we all turn a blind eye to this. I can't even bear to think of what the poor poor women inside are going through. The customers did not look like people who gave a damn about condoms. They did not look like they'd be gentle with anyone.

I am a woman. And my body is so precious to me. I can't even bear the look on men's faces when they stare straight at the assets. It only takes a dirty stare to remove all dignity I have in me. And, to think that these women, probably out of poverty, force, deception, have to allow these men, filthy, savage maybe, to use their bodies at their own will...aih..

I told Lydia about this, and Lydia said, "sometimes its thirst, sometimes is the satisfaction... evil as it may sound... and when there is demand, human trafficing will cease to exist"

I couldn't have said it better.

Why aren't we doing anything about this? Why can't we? Immediately, the first thing I thought of was, why is our money channeled for the unnecessary? My first real dissatisfaction with the government was the building of Melaka's great waterfall in the middle of nowhere in Bukit Baru. It is at a stupid junction in lebuh ayer keroh..It does not have a parking lot for visitors to visit the waterfalll..and the view...

VOILA!!magnificient!!

It does not serve any purpose...not even recreational..it is purely for aesthetic reasons! And, some beauty it is...half the time, it is switched off..to save electricity? And oo...did i mentioned...it cost the Melaka government 1.78 million??

My point, why aren't we doing something beneficial with the people's taxes? Is this waterfall necessary? Don't we have to do something about the asylum seekers in Malaysia instead? Aren't human lives more important? Aren't we the least concerned about human beings? Look at the Bukit Antarabangsa tragedy? Couldn't we care more about people's lives to assess housing project site more carefully?

Looking at the purple shoplot, I can only begin to imagine what life is to them..No human being would want to be reduced to that. The only driving force is survival. In other words, they have no choice. I wished things were more simple. That people weren't so twisted and money minded...too idealistic, but it is still a dream..:(