Im sipping on lemonade and allowing life to pass me by again...
I've signed up for personal training again, with a much more reliable trainer...decided not to stave myself this time... It was a good first session...unfortunately I have only 29 to go...:( its almost too sad...and now I have a wedding to attend on the 15th of October...with Kevin...hmm..it did feel weird when he asked me to accompany him, but what the heck..I'll just go along...Anyways, reason of mentioning wedding was because..YEAH! I get to dress up...but me so fat again..sigh....hoping training will work some magic..but its hard work all over again! No accident this time to ruin it!!
Work has been a pain
I had a night call with a very incompetent technician. He stopped doing calls for the last 5 years, and now he wants to upgrade to executive level and in turn become a technologist, so he decided to start doing his calls again. And it was bad!!! He did not know anything! I practically had to run the lab on my own!! I was almost in tears when there was a bad bleeding case, and I was almost out of blood!! Gosh, it was so freaking traumatic! I worked 15 hours non stop, and crashed the next day...it was too much for my body...did not like it at all!
Musad...oh well....now that things are over, he is being all nice again...I m trying my best to not allow his charms to melt me..and hence need more distractions...have learned that work is a unhealthy distraction dat gets me more money to go for retail therapy...guess that works huh?
Sigh, got to do somethin about late night lemonades la...hmmm....
Tuesday, 28 September 2010
Friday, 27 August 2010
ARGHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhh
I AM PISSED!!!!!!!!!!
On a beautiful public holiday, and I open facebook...when i arrived at my homepage, this was starring me in my face:
This piece of 'news' was posted by a colleague of mine. I couldn't resist but to put '???' in the comment box. I was so annoyed. Translating it, this paragraph claims that there are Malay priests active in Seremban and there are 1900 malay priests in Singapore already. They are apparently using magic, lacing mineral water with Holy Water, and distributing them, free or very cheap, under the names Al-Baramkah, Al-Mansori and Al-Bistaria. And then the message asks to spread this word around to all muslims.
Initially I was gonna rebut everything claimed here. but I decided not to, because I think the only thing I can say is there is a great, great level of ignorance in Malaysia. While the minorities learn about others and heed the call to live in tolerance and unity, the majority has a total lack of tolerance, and is totally insensitive to the rest.
it saddens me so much to see us slide backwards. I went for a movie with a Maldivian friend yesterday.And we were queuing up for tickets, and two groupd behind us just cut in front of us. I was so mad. Then at the counter, this guy, Prem who was manning it was rude. This is GSC in Midvalley. I was close to calling for the manager, but I did not want to ruin the night, so I just tolerated it. Thank God the guy Yusree at the popcorn stand was a million times better. After the movies we went to McD's and once again, this Indian girl, I can't recall her name, was not very polite either. SS15 McD, Subang Jaya, next to Starbucks.
Another time, in PJ, this car in front of my brother and I just wound down and threw his tissue out the window.
This is Malaysia right now. And my Maldivian friend was asking why none of the Malaysian youth believe in One Malaysia. This is why.
The root cause of the problem is not addressed. A slogan on the surface would not do anything. You can't just please the masses with superficiality any more. People are educated and going with the times.
My friend who is a Dean's list student from the esteemed University Malaya, was not given a scholarship because she wants to pursue her masters in Australia. And what do they ask her? 'How would we know if you will come back and serve Malaysia?' With that they have truly lost a scholar who really loves Malaysia because it is her home.
We make poor choices.We reap poorer produce.
Can't they get that straight? Before looking at how others could do better, we need to look in retrospect! You can only put a lid on on a boiling pot for so long before it pushes the lid off.
I am sad and very troubled.
On a beautiful public holiday, and I open facebook...when i arrived at my homepage, this was starring me in my face:
PADERI MELAYU SEDANG AKTIF DI SEREMBAN 1900 ORANG PADERI MELAYU YANG BARU TIBA DARI SINGAPURA BERADA DI SINI SEKARANG. MEREKA MENGGUNAKAN SIHIR. AIR MINERAL JENAMA:- 1. AL -BARAMKAH 2.AL-MANSORI 3. AL-BISTARIA P/S : SAMA ADA DIPEROLEHI SECARA PERCUMA ATAU DIJUAL MURAH SEMUA AIR-AIR INI TELAH DICAMPUR DENGAN 'HOLY ...WATER' TOLONG SEBARKAN MESSAGE INI KEPADA SEMUA UMAT ISLAM/SAHABAT/SAHABIAH & DLL.
This piece of 'news' was posted by a colleague of mine. I couldn't resist but to put '???' in the comment box. I was so annoyed. Translating it, this paragraph claims that there are Malay priests active in Seremban and there are 1900 malay priests in Singapore already. They are apparently using magic, lacing mineral water with Holy Water, and distributing them, free or very cheap, under the names Al-Baramkah, Al-Mansori and Al-Bistaria. And then the message asks to spread this word around to all muslims.
Initially I was gonna rebut everything claimed here. but I decided not to, because I think the only thing I can say is there is a great, great level of ignorance in Malaysia. While the minorities learn about others and heed the call to live in tolerance and unity, the majority has a total lack of tolerance, and is totally insensitive to the rest.
it saddens me so much to see us slide backwards. I went for a movie with a Maldivian friend yesterday.And we were queuing up for tickets, and two groupd behind us just cut in front of us. I was so mad. Then at the counter, this guy, Prem who was manning it was rude. This is GSC in Midvalley. I was close to calling for the manager, but I did not want to ruin the night, so I just tolerated it. Thank God the guy Yusree at the popcorn stand was a million times better. After the movies we went to McD's and once again, this Indian girl, I can't recall her name, was not very polite either. SS15 McD, Subang Jaya, next to Starbucks.
Another time, in PJ, this car in front of my brother and I just wound down and threw his tissue out the window.
This is Malaysia right now. And my Maldivian friend was asking why none of the Malaysian youth believe in One Malaysia. This is why.
The root cause of the problem is not addressed. A slogan on the surface would not do anything. You can't just please the masses with superficiality any more. People are educated and going with the times.
My friend who is a Dean's list student from the esteemed University Malaya, was not given a scholarship because she wants to pursue her masters in Australia. And what do they ask her? 'How would we know if you will come back and serve Malaysia?' With that they have truly lost a scholar who really loves Malaysia because it is her home.
We make poor choices.We reap poorer produce.
Can't they get that straight? Before looking at how others could do better, we need to look in retrospect! You can only put a lid on on a boiling pot for so long before it pushes the lid off.
I am sad and very troubled.
Sunday, 15 August 2010
The Reluctant Saint
The Reluctant Saint is a production by the Redemptorists in conjunction with their 75 years of presence in Malaysia and Singapore. It will be playing in Kuala Lumpur Performing Arts Centre from the 24th-28th in Pentas 1.It is the story of the young Alphonsus Liguori, a lawyer in Naples. It is the story of how he made a turn from a hotshot lawyer from a noble family to a priest with a love for the needy.
I was truly impressed by the performance and was pleasantly surprised to see a few familiar faces in the crew, especially Viviene and Kerry-Ann!
I am so grateful to Aunty Jo Scriven, for giving me the tickets, with premium seats mind you! :P She was such a delight! And was so happy to meet Rrrrrraph!! and my cousins there as well!
The Reluctant Saint is a must watch if you can still obtain the tickets! More so as the proceeds would be given to the Haiti Disaster Relief Fund. The Redemptorist mission was destroyed during the recent calamity. The production was more heartfelt since one of the major events in the production was the earthquake in Scala, the place St Alphonsus Liguori served for 30 odd years.
I was truly impressed, and I could see that the crew gave it their all! Fr Patrick Massang was so inspirational, and I could see that the Shepherd gave it his 101% to it!
*dunno how to put emotions into words*
Go watch it!!
Bravo to the crew!!! Well done!!
Thursday, 12 August 2010
sipping on lemonade
that's the current fad...lemonade...yummm...
Well...it was kinda tummy wrenching when I was sipping on lemonade and reading about the victims of the floods and landslides all over china, and pakistan...It was really sad..over here, i had a good day, slept the morning and afternooon away as I prepared for my night call at the hospital.
Yet, I could not stop thinking about the victims in China and Pakistan. What if that happened to me and my family in Malaysia..the general population would be sipping lemonade somewhere else reading about it in the papers.
The thing is we are not indifferent. but there is a limited means for us to help. I am barely making ends meet, in a country whose currency is becoming weaker, and where there is a real problem of disunity...Education is bad, there is no professionalism, and everything is just mediocre...We were once football champions in the region, and now Korea and Japan has gone the distance while we live in past glory, admiring the heroes of before. Our standards of English has dropped to the point local graduates are unemployable because of the command of the language. I am uncertain of the quality of my locally obtained degree, because I do not trust the system!
I feel like we are stuck, while everyone else is advancing. Hence the helplessness of not being to lend a helping hand to the victims of the disasters. I could lament my predicament, but the truth is, people are still suffering. Some child out there has lost a parent. Some mother has lost her family. Someone's grandfather is stranded with on the clothes on his back!
Right now, all I am able to do is look for means to aid them, and also pray for the victims....
Well...it was kinda tummy wrenching when I was sipping on lemonade and reading about the victims of the floods and landslides all over china, and pakistan...It was really sad..over here, i had a good day, slept the morning and afternooon away as I prepared for my night call at the hospital.
Yet, I could not stop thinking about the victims in China and Pakistan. What if that happened to me and my family in Malaysia..the general population would be sipping lemonade somewhere else reading about it in the papers.
The thing is we are not indifferent. but there is a limited means for us to help. I am barely making ends meet, in a country whose currency is becoming weaker, and where there is a real problem of disunity...Education is bad, there is no professionalism, and everything is just mediocre...We were once football champions in the region, and now Korea and Japan has gone the distance while we live in past glory, admiring the heroes of before. Our standards of English has dropped to the point local graduates are unemployable because of the command of the language. I am uncertain of the quality of my locally obtained degree, because I do not trust the system!
I feel like we are stuck, while everyone else is advancing. Hence the helplessness of not being to lend a helping hand to the victims of the disasters. I could lament my predicament, but the truth is, people are still suffering. Some child out there has lost a parent. Some mother has lost her family. Someone's grandfather is stranded with on the clothes on his back!
Right now, all I am able to do is look for means to aid them, and also pray for the victims....
Wednesday, 4 August 2010
Freaky
Okie, so I'm 25, single and very very very much young at heart! (Hey, I'm serious ok....people think I'm still studying...:P)
I have friends, who are my age and younger, and having kids since I was 18....fine...most of them did not further their studies and are of a different cultural background...
And then, now friends who are around my age, with the similar background, meaning people I could hang out with, are having babies too...and whoa...in a day, everything changes! Fatherhood/motherhood totally turns your life around.
Now, do not get me wrong, but I want to have children some day, with a man who is to be my best friend, and with me having all the stability needed to raise a family. I am not in emotional shape to even date properly, what else having a kid, and mind you, not blowing my bubble, but I am those who never went around dating in my teenage years, cuz I knew I did not know better, and am glad I waited, and had two beautiful relationships since my uni days, both with minimal regret, and have gain 2 beautiful friends for life.
I love my single life right now, I have so much about myself to discover and explore. I finally performed on stage, making a debut in the hospital only though,I have sang with a freaking huge life band, I have performed salsa for christmas parties and have it on youtube!! I have traveled to Italy, planning to explore south east asia in the next few years then fly further. I have plans to perhaps work overseas someday...so many things to do! I can go to Bali/Phuket with my best friend and have a whale of a time being spoilt as only a girl would be! I love being 25! I am only now ready to begin a solid, and real relationship, and enjoy being loved for who I am.
I do wish I could be a young mom, but I do not want to deprieve my chldren of the maturity I would have giving myself a little more time on my own. Gosh, the books I want to read, the stuff I wanna learn, the things I wanna do! I dun want to spend my life pushing my kids to try the stuff I never had the chance to. I love working in the hospital, playing a part in saving lives. I just love where I am now.
And yes, after all this, I do have insecurities... I am afraid I won't find a partner, I am afraid I will die, not knowing how it feels being committed to that one person till death do us part, I am afraid I will spend the evenings of my later years, strolling places alone. So many fears, but I guess I cannot succumb to it.
Corney as this sounds, I think this is something faced by many of my girl friends.. Oh well, at least I would still have my best friends around..:)
I have friends, who are my age and younger, and having kids since I was 18....fine...most of them did not further their studies and are of a different cultural background...
And then, now friends who are around my age, with the similar background, meaning people I could hang out with, are having babies too...and whoa...in a day, everything changes! Fatherhood/motherhood totally turns your life around.
Now, do not get me wrong, but I want to have children some day, with a man who is to be my best friend, and with me having all the stability needed to raise a family. I am not in emotional shape to even date properly, what else having a kid, and mind you, not blowing my bubble, but I am those who never went around dating in my teenage years, cuz I knew I did not know better, and am glad I waited, and had two beautiful relationships since my uni days, both with minimal regret, and have gain 2 beautiful friends for life.
I love my single life right now, I have so much about myself to discover and explore. I finally performed on stage, making a debut in the hospital only though,I have sang with a freaking huge life band, I have performed salsa for christmas parties and have it on youtube!! I have traveled to Italy, planning to explore south east asia in the next few years then fly further. I have plans to perhaps work overseas someday...so many things to do! I can go to Bali/Phuket with my best friend and have a whale of a time being spoilt as only a girl would be! I love being 25! I am only now ready to begin a solid, and real relationship, and enjoy being loved for who I am.
I do wish I could be a young mom, but I do not want to deprieve my chldren of the maturity I would have giving myself a little more time on my own. Gosh, the books I want to read, the stuff I wanna learn, the things I wanna do! I dun want to spend my life pushing my kids to try the stuff I never had the chance to. I love working in the hospital, playing a part in saving lives. I just love where I am now.
And yes, after all this, I do have insecurities... I am afraid I won't find a partner, I am afraid I will die, not knowing how it feels being committed to that one person till death do us part, I am afraid I will spend the evenings of my later years, strolling places alone. So many fears, but I guess I cannot succumb to it.
Corney as this sounds, I think this is something faced by many of my girl friends.. Oh well, at least I would still have my best friends around..:)
Sunday, 1 August 2010
Excitement!
I was excited because I performed on Friday!! I looked like a stuffed potato, but I think I sounded pretty good!
It was exhilarating! I was nervous but the moment I was on stage, it was perfect! Belted out 'I want to spend my lifetime loving you' with a colleague who is the local celebrity apparently in the hospital... However, every time I practiced the song on my own, I felt that the chorus, was not to just a lover, n but more fitted for a Divine Lover.
For some reason, every time I sang I want to spend my lifetime loving you, it was most fitting to God. Whom else would I want to spend my lifetime loving? Who else was worth it? The rest of the world may think I'm cuckoo..but at least Feli thought it was beautiful.
Pics are on facebook! Me looking like a (stuffed potato) spanish senorita...:P With a HUGE rose on my head! Haha..It was fun...
Oh well...can't wait to see the video! :)
Good night guys...
It was exhilarating! I was nervous but the moment I was on stage, it was perfect! Belted out 'I want to spend my lifetime loving you' with a colleague who is the local celebrity apparently in the hospital... However, every time I practiced the song on my own, I felt that the chorus, was not to just a lover, n but more fitted for a Divine Lover.
For some reason, every time I sang I want to spend my lifetime loving you, it was most fitting to God. Whom else would I want to spend my lifetime loving? Who else was worth it? The rest of the world may think I'm cuckoo..but at least Feli thought it was beautiful.
Pics are on facebook! Me looking like a (stuffed potato) spanish senorita...:P With a HUGE rose on my head! Haha..It was fun...
Oh well...can't wait to see the video! :)
Good night guys...
Monday, 21 June 2010
so many many many thingsssssssssss
Updates updates!!!!!!!!!!
Work: boss is a painnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...... but the quality officer is really cool! I'm running correlations for different dengue kits, for both antibodies and also antigen detection. It is nice to perform a study and to have a report with your name printed below!! :D The scientist in me delights in the little things that define the sensitivity and specificity of the kits! Yeaa yea...me a nerd, me knows...:P
Life: I am soooooooo glad to be able to separate my LIFE from WORK! Haha...that makes me the happiest thing alive! :) Let's see....I'm getting the hang of chanting for Vespers..Cantor-ing is challenging (with me creating a 'new tune' every now and then..:P). It is empowering to be able to chant in Latin, to learn so many Latin hymns and canticles. My father would have been proud of me. Currently trying to master the solemn Salve Regina..mallismatic chants are tough...
The preparation for the PAG team is pretty cool too. We are now planning for the training camp coming up on the second weekend of July. Mostly on community living..and about living a Christ centred life in the secular world. Also, empowering them to take up responsibilities and learning accountability...It is enriching watching them grow from strength to strength!
On top of that, the Catholic Students Society of my old university called me to conduct a session or two for their upcoming Exco Planning Camp. It was heart warming to get juniors who have no clue who I am to call me to give a talk and impart some of the experience I had as a President 3 years ago. I was mostly touched that the juniors remembered the work I put in for them...and once again, I must remember to thank the Lord for working wonders through me at my weakest times...I was a wreck back then, and yet something so beautiful came out of it...Sigh..amazing huh?
The module we are working on based on the Purpose Driven Life is slowly taking shape... It is amazing to see the work Natalie put up...I was impressed with the questions she asked, and it was a very fruitful meeting..I am excited to try it for university students as we have planned it to be...
Unfortunately, the love life has been a pain..Lol. Nothing is perfect eh? It is hard to put my trust completely in the Lord in all things. I think it just feels so bad because I can't seem to be ble to open my heart to the few guys who seem interested...but i guess it is for good reasons la...one lives an immoral life...and has no plans of changing it..another is too young for me..There is still one who has been there for me through so many things, but i think cannot la...too young...Sometimes it does get the better of me..I can end up crying for no apparent reason....I just have to drag myself in prayer to sustain me...nothing else does it....Sigh...difficult eh?
My family is doing fantastic..I am so happy that my 2nd brother is now working in KL as well....now I really feel likeI have someone to rely on here in KL....I am sooooooo relieved and I really thank God for it...He has been looking after me all these years..in uni I had my faithful Bryan,Rubern, Cheese and Chia wei looking out for me..then Kevin came around...and now my brother is here...I am lucky...
oh well...all's well and fine I guess......ciao.............
Love, Pebblesssss
Work: boss is a painnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...... but the quality officer is really cool! I'm running correlations for different dengue kits, for both antibodies and also antigen detection. It is nice to perform a study and to have a report with your name printed below!! :D The scientist in me delights in the little things that define the sensitivity and specificity of the kits! Yeaa yea...me a nerd, me knows...:P
Life: I am soooooooo glad to be able to separate my LIFE from WORK! Haha...that makes me the happiest thing alive! :) Let's see....I'm getting the hang of chanting for Vespers..Cantor-ing is challenging (with me creating a 'new tune' every now and then..:P). It is empowering to be able to chant in Latin, to learn so many Latin hymns and canticles. My father would have been proud of me. Currently trying to master the solemn Salve Regina..mallismatic chants are tough...
The preparation for the PAG team is pretty cool too. We are now planning for the training camp coming up on the second weekend of July. Mostly on community living..and about living a Christ centred life in the secular world. Also, empowering them to take up responsibilities and learning accountability...It is enriching watching them grow from strength to strength!
On top of that, the Catholic Students Society of my old university called me to conduct a session or two for their upcoming Exco Planning Camp. It was heart warming to get juniors who have no clue who I am to call me to give a talk and impart some of the experience I had as a President 3 years ago. I was mostly touched that the juniors remembered the work I put in for them...and once again, I must remember to thank the Lord for working wonders through me at my weakest times...I was a wreck back then, and yet something so beautiful came out of it...Sigh..amazing huh?
The module we are working on based on the Purpose Driven Life is slowly taking shape... It is amazing to see the work Natalie put up...I was impressed with the questions she asked, and it was a very fruitful meeting..I am excited to try it for university students as we have planned it to be...
Unfortunately, the love life has been a pain..Lol. Nothing is perfect eh? It is hard to put my trust completely in the Lord in all things. I think it just feels so bad because I can't seem to be ble to open my heart to the few guys who seem interested...but i guess it is for good reasons la...one lives an immoral life...and has no plans of changing it..another is too young for me..There is still one who has been there for me through so many things, but i think cannot la...too young...Sometimes it does get the better of me..I can end up crying for no apparent reason....I just have to drag myself in prayer to sustain me...nothing else does it....Sigh...difficult eh?
My family is doing fantastic..I am so happy that my 2nd brother is now working in KL as well....now I really feel likeI have someone to rely on here in KL....I am sooooooo relieved and I really thank God for it...He has been looking after me all these years..in uni I had my faithful Bryan,Rubern, Cheese and Chia wei looking out for me..then Kevin came around...and now my brother is here...I am lucky...
oh well...all's well and fine I guess......ciao.............
Love, Pebblesssss
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