Spent the weekend with 3 good friends in Ipoh. We bunked at the LaSalle centre next to St Michael's Institution. Caught up with an old friend..,It was very interesting for reasons I can't really disclose here...But basically, I found the common thought and mindset very very very pleasing. yet, it wass very bittersweet...
I ended up with a lot to think about.
We also ate like pigs!!! I had lots of yummy noodles...and topped up with Bidor wantan mee....YUMM!! Cheese, I hate u fr not taking me to Ipoh for food hunt! We ate in Ipoh Gardens....and we had fried chicken skin...lovely....like eating a drier KFC fried chicken skin minus meat....YYUMMMMM
But above all, the company was fantastic! It was such a breath of fresh air....
Bittersweet....:(
Also, part of the discussion was about naming one person who u need to restore a relationship with. Funny how that person was not RC, but SS.
I was in tears talking about her. And the pain is from the fact that she hurt me although I begged not to be hurt, especially at that time.
Also....admitted that I am cat-like..
Hahahahahahahhaa
Monday 31 August 2009
SO what now?
So what now, that I realize after all these years, it feels the same? So what now when I empathize so well? So what now when I know the duration of the friendship in itself is the barrier?
So what now?
So what now?
Tuesday 25 August 2009
One tear drop, den two, then 3, no it stops there!
Yes it stops there..
reminders or no reminders,
what's gone is gone, from that ONE decision.
I was deleted, just like the message.
No use reminding yourself, and the rest of the world. No one remembers.
Yes, I'm definitely emo today, though it did not start out this way. I stayed back an extra hour to finish some work I did not want to keep pending. I went to the gym, and for some reason triceps extensions were not going too well. Tried calling Kamini out, she had prayers to attend to. Veena has exams. Karen is in S'pore while Fellie is babysitting niece n nephew.
Kevin is layan-ing guests at home, Murly missing. Weng Lee's gf is down, Cheese is tired. Joshua is too far away, and I did not want to ask the rest out...9 were bad enough!
And he had to pretend to have a heart when neither have any feeling of remorse! It had to be on a day I was super hungry also la. P was drunk and in the drunkedness asked me out! :S Running from D, M and J. Did not wanna reply their messages..so I did, relunctantly...
I am resorted to say the compline and get some sleep.
Life can be a piece of S*** sometimes. Sigh. It was such a pretty day. Have no idea why it turned out this way..Wait,I know, because I had to read his freaki g blog..
Slap me!
reminders or no reminders,
what's gone is gone, from that ONE decision.
I was deleted, just like the message.
No use reminding yourself, and the rest of the world. No one remembers.
Yes, I'm definitely emo today, though it did not start out this way. I stayed back an extra hour to finish some work I did not want to keep pending. I went to the gym, and for some reason triceps extensions were not going too well. Tried calling Kamini out, she had prayers to attend to. Veena has exams. Karen is in S'pore while Fellie is babysitting niece n nephew.
Kevin is layan-ing guests at home, Murly missing. Weng Lee's gf is down, Cheese is tired. Joshua is too far away, and I did not want to ask the rest out...9 were bad enough!
And he had to pretend to have a heart when neither have any feeling of remorse! It had to be on a day I was super hungry also la. P was drunk and in the drunkedness asked me out! :S Running from D, M and J. Did not wanna reply their messages..so I did, relunctantly...
I am resorted to say the compline and get some sleep.
Life can be a piece of S*** sometimes. Sigh. It was such a pretty day. Have no idea why it turned out this way..Wait,I know, because I had to read his freaki g blog..
Slap me!
Only Happy When It's about Church work
I've tried all sorts..
I dun quite fancy self-developmental programmes that are not Church-based. Somehow, it never gels with me. I have been to many commendable movement meetings..Interact which is part of the Rotary club, AIESEC, I've been given a taste of Apex, and I've seen (roughly) a toasmasters gathering....
In all 4, it was very fraternal. In a way, I found them a tad sad cuz the friendship n brotherhood had to really be worked on. The difference with doing stuff with church is the brotherhood comes very naturally and genuinely. (Especially in youth ministry..I mean there is more than a fair share of two-faced hypocrcites la).
Great movements, do not get me wrong. Noble causes indeed, but I feel most happy when in sync with the Holy See. It is always monitored carefully to be in line with the Churches teachings. Sometimes, in these fraternal movements, good intentions could sometimes turn sour as well..when groud become exclusive and belittling.
Whereas at Church, the rigidity of it, ensures that the reason for the group is constantly in view (BUT the are MANY that are tersasul as well la..)
At least, I thank God that the choir and our little Purpose Driven Life gatherings are pretty well rooted.
And I'm happy.
Very happy!
I dun quite fancy self-developmental programmes that are not Church-based. Somehow, it never gels with me. I have been to many commendable movement meetings..Interact which is part of the Rotary club, AIESEC, I've been given a taste of Apex, and I've seen (roughly) a toasmasters gathering....
In all 4, it was very fraternal. In a way, I found them a tad sad cuz the friendship n brotherhood had to really be worked on. The difference with doing stuff with church is the brotherhood comes very naturally and genuinely. (Especially in youth ministry..I mean there is more than a fair share of two-faced hypocrcites la).
Great movements, do not get me wrong. Noble causes indeed, but I feel most happy when in sync with the Holy See. It is always monitored carefully to be in line with the Churches teachings. Sometimes, in these fraternal movements, good intentions could sometimes turn sour as well..when groud become exclusive and belittling.
Whereas at Church, the rigidity of it, ensures that the reason for the group is constantly in view (BUT the are MANY that are tersasul as well la..)
At least, I thank God that the choir and our little Purpose Driven Life gatherings are pretty well rooted.
And I'm happy.
Very happy!
Sunday 23 August 2009
Saturday 22 August 2009
Another good night out
After work I was supposed to chill with Kamini and watch out chick flick, The Proposal....tapi, Friday night, did not book tickets, only seats were in front of the bloody screen...so we decided to eat. Oasis so bodo, so we ate at KFC. After that we decided to go over to Bangsar to chill..
And guess what? We see my ex and his girlfriend with another friend! Kamini and I laughed our head off. She could not recognise him..And she thought they looked like siblings..:S I only thought they looked like kids. (Shut up Bryan, you'd probably be saying 'u bitter, bitter people' in ur mind..I NOE HOW U THINK!) Hahahaha.... Oh well, when I looked at them, all I felt was like I was looking into a window far into my past, where things were once a certain way. Oh well, they deserve each other la. Dua kali lima.
So we went to Bangsar...thought of Finniggans, but TSB looked good too...and so did that German pub...could not decide, but we ended up in D'Haven...and me, the new leaf, had banana milkshake! :D Squid fritters YUM-MY, but we did indulge in shisha...:D. Not too bad...nw I feel dry...:S
But yea, the upstairs of D'Haven has a laid back interior..Carpets, cushions and music is just right..n it's quiet, and it opens till 2am.:D
Now I shall do some work before slumber...might go to SFX tmr...:)
And guess what? We see my ex and his girlfriend with another friend! Kamini and I laughed our head off. She could not recognise him..And she thought they looked like siblings..:S I only thought they looked like kids. (Shut up Bryan, you'd probably be saying 'u bitter, bitter people' in ur mind..I NOE HOW U THINK!) Hahahaha.... Oh well, when I looked at them, all I felt was like I was looking into a window far into my past, where things were once a certain way. Oh well, they deserve each other la. Dua kali lima.
So we went to Bangsar...thought of Finniggans, but TSB looked good too...and so did that German pub...could not decide, but we ended up in D'Haven...and me, the new leaf, had banana milkshake! :D Squid fritters YUM-MY, but we did indulge in shisha...:D. Not too bad...nw I feel dry...:S
But yea, the upstairs of D'Haven has a laid back interior..Carpets, cushions and music is just right..n it's quiet, and it opens till 2am.:D
Now I shall do some work before slumber...might go to SFX tmr...:)
Friday 21 August 2009
Happier days
Bryan was right.
I needed more girl friends. Fun is more wholesome. And we're genuinely entertained. Looking forward for my movie date with Kamini n Veena tmr, probably a sunday in with Jessie and Althea if Melaka doesn't work out..Fellie and Karen and Geraldine when we are all more free ya? Alpha Banting is heavy eh?
Oh well, finally life is back on track. I'm re-focused, and re-directed. Meetings with some really good old friends is really refreshing..Old faces, fond memories and the consistency of the solid friendship built through the years...It's as though we never parted to begin with. Fixx-it actually worked! With a few major glitches, but yea, it worked.
So what's Pearly's week like these days?
Work, gym, choir, youth, girlfriends and more family time despite the distance..
Sounds healthy yea? Cuz I miss out the CHOCOLATES part! *grin*
Oooo...and since I'm on the topic of food....a must try if you're in KL is,the smokehouse in Bangsar....It's next to Madam Kwan's opposite Bangsar Village 2....valet parking for the girls out there if you're afraid to park too far off is about rm 15 for the whole night, so.not too bad I guess for safety..
The signature desserts were the Thai sticky rice and mango, and the BOMBE ALASKA!!!! Shortbread, topped with fruits and ice-cream, covered in meringue, spotted with cherries,and poured over with flaming burnt sugar!!!! Yummm....but I ha the creme brulee.....mmmmmmmmmmmmm....hmmmmm...
:)
And yes, hoegarden is good.....Happy hour, one pint of Hoegarden beer for rm25....Not too bad eh???
:D
Happy!
I needed more girl friends. Fun is more wholesome. And we're genuinely entertained. Looking forward for my movie date with Kamini n Veena tmr, probably a sunday in with Jessie and Althea if Melaka doesn't work out..Fellie and Karen and Geraldine when we are all more free ya? Alpha Banting is heavy eh?
Oh well, finally life is back on track. I'm re-focused, and re-directed. Meetings with some really good old friends is really refreshing..Old faces, fond memories and the consistency of the solid friendship built through the years...It's as though we never parted to begin with. Fixx-it actually worked! With a few major glitches, but yea, it worked.
So what's Pearly's week like these days?
Work, gym, choir, youth, girlfriends and more family time despite the distance..
Sounds healthy yea? Cuz I miss out the CHOCOLATES part! *grin*
Oooo...and since I'm on the topic of food....a must try if you're in KL is,the smokehouse in Bangsar....It's next to Madam Kwan's opposite Bangsar Village 2....valet parking for the girls out there if you're afraid to park too far off is about rm 15 for the whole night, so.not too bad I guess for safety..
The signature desserts were the Thai sticky rice and mango, and the BOMBE ALASKA!!!! Shortbread, topped with fruits and ice-cream, covered in meringue, spotted with cherries,and poured over with flaming burnt sugar!!!! Yummm....but I ha the creme brulee.....mmmmmmmmmmmmm....hmmmmm...
:)
And yes, hoegarden is good.....Happy hour, one pint of Hoegarden beer for rm25....Not too bad eh???
:D
Happy!
Tuesday 18 August 2009
Exhausted
I love this feeling though. It is because I know the exhaustion is not in vain.
Today, once again, I got kinda irritated with a few of my colleagues. not because they re bad people, but because of people management.
There is this one person who LOVES being the bearer of bad news. I think she is trying to break me because she is basically an unhappy person. She is insecure because I lost so much of weight and she cant seem to shed the pounds. So this married, mother of two, 30-ish lady, actually starves herself. I mean, if she were a teenager, I'd forgive the impulsiveness. Even if she were in her early 20s...But come on! you're in your 30s and can even understand that skipping meals is bad for your metabolism?? And ultimately wont help in weight loss? Sigh. She likes being cynical, and I think she hates it when I purposely ignore it, and continue smiling. :)
Stupid.
So, yesterday was a Monday, and now with the new rapid test kit for influenza A and B, doctors are in love with digging their patients' noses! (The kit requires a nasal swab sample). That does not mean that the normal respiratory virus screening had ceased...Did not help that I am not able to read the slides I prepared as well....and hence with so many variables, Monday was a complete disaster. So I come to work bright and early Tuesday morning, happily walking knowing JV (my pillar of sanity in the insanity!)would be back from her leave, and here comes adolescent woman, and smears my day with bad news, almost happy I made a slip up!
I did not key in the results of a rapid test in the midst of the chaos that was Monday. felt horrible for the nurse that had to face the Lucky patient. It was my fault. Yet, there was absolutely nothing else I could have done to make it better..
So move on. Learn and move on.
So the bosses came in to talk to the whole bench. And I owned up before anything could happen and explained why. See, Monday I told my boss I could not handle it. They just assigned someone from the spinning bench to help. These monkeys are total idiots. They smile in front of the boss, and say OK. Yes. *BIG SMILE* and then buat bodoh about the whole situation.
If you cannot commit, say you can't.
Then I have a peer, who came in about the same time as I did. Well I understand her situation. She wanted to help genuinely with another colleague of mine on MC. But she kinda mess things up. Problem is she was very confident of her work and did not ask for help when things got bad. Now one machine is down. :S And some of the very important tests can't be run... now the rest of the colleagues, they ought to have sat her down and told her why she messed up so badly. See, when you're aggressive when correcting a person, the person would be defensive. Simple mathematics. Now, why on earth do you need to practically shout at each other (IN TAMIL) how she made a big mess. It could have been more productive. (THANK GOD JV IS BACK)
I'm exhausted from listening to A bitch about B and B whine about A.. I'm a lttle annoyed that I am doing extra work so I can have a little peace and quiet in the lab. K needs voice control classes...:S
Oh well. i've bitched my share....Now, time to get some rest and get ready for tmr. Btw, did I mention I have fantastic bosses?
nights.
Today, once again, I got kinda irritated with a few of my colleagues. not because they re bad people, but because of people management.
There is this one person who LOVES being the bearer of bad news. I think she is trying to break me because she is basically an unhappy person. She is insecure because I lost so much of weight and she cant seem to shed the pounds. So this married, mother of two, 30-ish lady, actually starves herself. I mean, if she were a teenager, I'd forgive the impulsiveness. Even if she were in her early 20s...But come on! you're in your 30s and can even understand that skipping meals is bad for your metabolism?? And ultimately wont help in weight loss? Sigh. She likes being cynical, and I think she hates it when I purposely ignore it, and continue smiling. :)
Stupid.
So, yesterday was a Monday, and now with the new rapid test kit for influenza A and B, doctors are in love with digging their patients' noses! (The kit requires a nasal swab sample). That does not mean that the normal respiratory virus screening had ceased...Did not help that I am not able to read the slides I prepared as well....and hence with so many variables, Monday was a complete disaster. So I come to work bright and early Tuesday morning, happily walking knowing JV (my pillar of sanity in the insanity!)would be back from her leave, and here comes adolescent woman, and smears my day with bad news, almost happy I made a slip up!
I did not key in the results of a rapid test in the midst of the chaos that was Monday. felt horrible for the nurse that had to face the Lucky patient. It was my fault. Yet, there was absolutely nothing else I could have done to make it better..
So move on. Learn and move on.
So the bosses came in to talk to the whole bench. And I owned up before anything could happen and explained why. See, Monday I told my boss I could not handle it. They just assigned someone from the spinning bench to help. These monkeys are total idiots. They smile in front of the boss, and say OK. Yes. *BIG SMILE* and then buat bodoh about the whole situation.
If you cannot commit, say you can't.
Then I have a peer, who came in about the same time as I did. Well I understand her situation. She wanted to help genuinely with another colleague of mine on MC. But she kinda mess things up. Problem is she was very confident of her work and did not ask for help when things got bad. Now one machine is down. :S And some of the very important tests can't be run... now the rest of the colleagues, they ought to have sat her down and told her why she messed up so badly. See, when you're aggressive when correcting a person, the person would be defensive. Simple mathematics. Now, why on earth do you need to practically shout at each other (IN TAMIL) how she made a big mess. It could have been more productive. (THANK GOD JV IS BACK)
I'm exhausted from listening to A bitch about B and B whine about A.. I'm a lttle annoyed that I am doing extra work so I can have a little peace and quiet in the lab. K needs voice control classes...:S
Oh well. i've bitched my share....Now, time to get some rest and get ready for tmr. Btw, did I mention I have fantastic bosses?
nights.
Tuesday 11 August 2009
Monday 10 August 2009
irritated
I dun get it.
Why do people like gossip??
I mean, we are all curious beings, I admit, but asking about everything and everyone??!!
There is this student at my lab. She is about my age, a year younger at the most, but my god! the conversations she has with my colleagues!!
Why why just now ms *** talking so much??
What happened? oh yes ar? den after dat I heard ****** saying that someone never follow protocol..who who?
*colleagues talking*
Oh she ar? Why she do like that? Oh...
the whole day like this in tamil!! (Yes, surprise surprise, I actually understand simple colloquial tamil!! :S)
SO bloody irritating. How many times must one situation be repeated? How many times must you talk about how a person should be doing this and should be doing that...when I felt like screaming, YOU SHOULD just shut the **** UP!!
Yes, irritated...
The lack of sleep is not helping....
Why do people like gossip??
I mean, we are all curious beings, I admit, but asking about everything and everyone??!!
There is this student at my lab. She is about my age, a year younger at the most, but my god! the conversations she has with my colleagues!!
Why why just now ms *** talking so much??
What happened? oh yes ar? den after dat I heard ****** saying that someone never follow protocol..who who?
*colleagues talking*
Oh she ar? Why she do like that? Oh...
the whole day like this in tamil!! (Yes, surprise surprise, I actually understand simple colloquial tamil!! :S)
SO bloody irritating. How many times must one situation be repeated? How many times must you talk about how a person should be doing this and should be doing that...when I felt like screaming, YOU SHOULD just shut the **** UP!!
Yes, irritated...
The lack of sleep is not helping....
Saturday 8 August 2009
ruski
having ruski the way we used to.
thinking.
n wit a sigh, life goes on.
:)
I'm doing fine and well gals...just one of those fleeting moments dat get smaller and smaller with time...you noe what I mean? soon it'd be gone.
thinking.
n wit a sigh, life goes on.
:)
I'm doing fine and well gals...just one of those fleeting moments dat get smaller and smaller with time...you noe what I mean? soon it'd be gone.
Food is the way to a man's heart
Actually, that is not what I'm gonna rant about today..It is just a random inkling I had to type out as title cuz I can't believe how true it could...(emphasize the word COULD) be. A long time ago (I can't believe 17 was 7 years ago!!..:S), I spent my form 5 post spm holidays in Perth with my sister. Bored out of my head, I used to cook lunch for the family...Especially my brother in law..Made him mash potatoes, fish n chips, chicken fillet (mind you, I de-boned them myself....dun ask me now..forgot..:S)..He used to love it so much. One day, (having no younger sister, he took me as one he is VERY over-protective about)
he sits me down and tells me very seriously, Pearly, never cook for your guy friends. And I asked why? He said, owh, caused they'd be all over you...don't you know the way to a man's heart is through his stomach?? I dun want them fellas to be giving you troubles...
*blank*
back then, men did not know I existed...correction..back then, boys forgot I was a girl..:S
Oh well...recently, after the accident, I have decided to dabble in baking. It's therapeutic...the aroma of your hard work floating from your kitchen....priceless.
Well, this was my first attempt on a fruit cake, and damn it was real good....But the cake was HUGE!
So I brought it to work, gave half of it to my colleagues...smart me..now I have to write down the recipe for that half of my colleagues! :S Den I had a bit left and brought it to my gym. Lol. Yes, I feed my trainers with food I can't finish..Heh...Maybe that's why they love me...Anyhoo..There's this John Abraham look-a-like..he is my personal trainer..who has problems keeping his hormones to himself...oh well, he had been so freaking busy, running up and down..I had to hunt him down to pass him my cake. Now he's begging me to bake one just for him...pigs..
couldn't stop thinking of my brother-in-law's words...
Den there was the EX, who'd beg me to make my mom's chicken curry..he's even willing to prepare the chicken for me, just want me to cook it! And CW who loved my pan mee....Unfortunately I don't think Bryan enjoyed any of my food...not that I cooked much back then..Hmmm...
Food and men...
Men bite as well...literally. It's innate! Talk about meat, in any sense...they'd be drooling...I dun get it...Wave a particularly sweet smelling bbq chicken in front of me, and if I'm not drinking, i wouldnt even take a bite...Just not a crave...Now, chocolates would be a different story altogether....the same goes for banana smoothies, and pasta..yummm...
And life..when it's happening, you dun have time to think! When it's dull, you had better wait for a pig to start flying!
Tmr I have to attend an annual meeting for all sime darby's employees...and tonight, I have an invite to mist, an invite for a thani session by the pool, and an invite to a pub in PJ to meet this traveller..and a totally new bunch of people as well...and to top it off, my colleague is bunking over..Now, what do I do...all 3 invites are tempting for different reasons..
Mist because it's club guy's birthday..And he is a good and damn tall dancer. :D
Pool thani because this bunch of people are interesting, especially the engineer dude, who has this real witty but tired look in his eyes topped with a whole dollop of cheekiness,and PJ cuz guy is a decent (probably gay) guy, who's pretty mysterious, outgoing, BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY...DECENT! prob is I wuldnt noe the rest of the peeps going thr..
Mist guy and Pool guy are people I met randomly, while Decent guy is a friend's friend who's prob interested in friend's sister, but decent nonetheless.
But but but...me just wanna attend mass, and sleep.
:D
WE shall see.....
he sits me down and tells me very seriously, Pearly, never cook for your guy friends. And I asked why? He said, owh, caused they'd be all over you...don't you know the way to a man's heart is through his stomach?? I dun want them fellas to be giving you troubles...
*blank*
back then, men did not know I existed...correction..back then, boys forgot I was a girl..:S
Oh well...recently, after the accident, I have decided to dabble in baking. It's therapeutic...the aroma of your hard work floating from your kitchen....priceless.
Well, this was my first attempt on a fruit cake, and damn it was real good....But the cake was HUGE!
So I brought it to work, gave half of it to my colleagues...smart me..now I have to write down the recipe for that half of my colleagues! :S Den I had a bit left and brought it to my gym. Lol. Yes, I feed my trainers with food I can't finish..Heh...Maybe that's why they love me...Anyhoo..There's this John Abraham look-a-like..he is my personal trainer..who has problems keeping his hormones to himself...oh well, he had been so freaking busy, running up and down..I had to hunt him down to pass him my cake. Now he's begging me to bake one just for him...pigs..
couldn't stop thinking of my brother-in-law's words...
Den there was the EX, who'd beg me to make my mom's chicken curry..he's even willing to prepare the chicken for me, just want me to cook it! And CW who loved my pan mee....Unfortunately I don't think Bryan enjoyed any of my food...not that I cooked much back then..Hmmm...
Food and men...
Men bite as well...literally. It's innate! Talk about meat, in any sense...they'd be drooling...I dun get it...Wave a particularly sweet smelling bbq chicken in front of me, and if I'm not drinking, i wouldnt even take a bite...Just not a crave...Now, chocolates would be a different story altogether....the same goes for banana smoothies, and pasta..yummm...
And life..when it's happening, you dun have time to think! When it's dull, you had better wait for a pig to start flying!
Tmr I have to attend an annual meeting for all sime darby's employees...and tonight, I have an invite to mist, an invite for a thani session by the pool, and an invite to a pub in PJ to meet this traveller..and a totally new bunch of people as well...and to top it off, my colleague is bunking over..Now, what do I do...all 3 invites are tempting for different reasons..
Mist because it's club guy's birthday..And he is a good and damn tall dancer. :D
Pool thani because this bunch of people are interesting, especially the engineer dude, who has this real witty but tired look in his eyes topped with a whole dollop of cheekiness,and PJ cuz guy is a decent (probably gay) guy, who's pretty mysterious, outgoing, BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY...DECENT! prob is I wuldnt noe the rest of the peeps going thr..
Mist guy and Pool guy are people I met randomly, while Decent guy is a friend's friend who's prob interested in friend's sister, but decent nonetheless.
But but but...me just wanna attend mass, and sleep.
:D
WE shall see.....
Tuesday 4 August 2009
Men=babies
Men are such babies.
It is so difficult to look after their emotional needs, especially since it is the more undeveloped aspect of the masculine.
And when they are more intuned with the inner self....they go overboard!
Maybe I have reached a point where I am pretty complete as a person, I do no want another to depend on me. I need a person who is complete as he is right now, and we can both make each other lives better...not 'I can't live without you' situation.
I have seriously had it with the Men-babies..
Details later, I need sleep now.
It is so difficult to look after their emotional needs, especially since it is the more undeveloped aspect of the masculine.
And when they are more intuned with the inner self....they go overboard!
Maybe I have reached a point where I am pretty complete as a person, I do no want another to depend on me. I need a person who is complete as he is right now, and we can both make each other lives better...not 'I can't live without you' situation.
I have seriously had it with the Men-babies..
Details later, I need sleep now.
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