Let it be

Let go, and let God

Sacred Music

Today I was introduced to Sacred music by Ben, an interesting character. :)


For fun, I shall show how I met this person and the gang..

This is how it works...

I knew Jon from Caritas days, where Melaka-Johor Diocese had started building relations with the Penang Diocese. Jon from Penang attended the PAG held in Melaka, and went on to bring the programme back to Penang. This was in 1999.

In 2003, Jon comes to Melaka to study in MMU Melaka, when yours truly helped a little here and there. Then Jon goes off to MMU Cyber, while I go to UKM. In UKM, I involve myself in CSS where I work with Fr Chris who suggests James and Caroline as facilitators for our annual camp. James and Caroline introduces us to alpha in 2006, and upon graduation, I am invited to attend Youth Alpha facilitators weekend, where I meet Damian.

In 2009, Damian invites me to attend the Charismatic Renewal Youth rally held in Klang, where I meet Madaan who works for Sound Tank Productions in SS15..a stone's throw away from SDMC. James invites me to help out in St Thomas More's Alpha, where I meet a bunch of people. Jon comes in contact again, and he gives my contact to Charlene who forwards it to Crisabel, who I happened to meet in STM's alpha through whom I meet Daniel who met Madaan in Sound Tank.. Geez...small world. Anyhoooooo.....

Ben, who I also meet through Crisabel is an advocate for Sacred music to be played in Church, meaning non-contemporary music in layman's term...dun get me wrong, it is not all as heavy as it sounds...just more "churchy".

The idea of following the guide according to the documents of the Catholic church is pretty interesting. The whole idea of the Liturgy of the Hours might sound solemn, but I must say it is truly music dat brings one to worship.

hence I am interested by the idea of learning up more on what the Catholic Church says about music allowed during Mass. More to learn and think about..coming up soon...

We shall commence our weekly Thursday meetings to discuss and brainstorm as well as discern further....

Anyone interested, drop me a line..will explain more...I have documents to swallow....:D
It would be a time for us to informally meet and learn more about this Sacred Music as it is apparently called, with Vespers and Lauds and the whole works in addition to the beautiful Liturgy of the Eucharist.





Coooool......:D

Fixx-it-time

*cheeky grin*


Thursday: St Thomas More choir discussion

Friday: Laundry day

Saturday: Furniture day *grin* and maybe a good dinner wit Cheesy daddy!!

Sunday: Pearlytime

Monday-Friday: Bills, work and a new bench (Work!! I'm getting closer to my beloved Microbiology bench......:D)

SATURDAY: Girl's night out!!


Sunday: Hoped contentment. :)








Fixx-it!!

Drama

Tonight I found out I might have been in a relationship which I did not know about..

Man was the most decent trainer in the gym. Never hit on me, always polite, and focused on his work. He was always punctual, and he was always giving everything 101%.

After a few months of Hi and Bye, we talk. We finally exchange numbers, and he invites me to his house to celebrate another friend's birthday. I wanted to go, and so I did. Instantly friends with his girlfriends, and warmed up to his family.

He takes me out for a drink one night, and is the first guy in my life to be punctual. We spend the whole night talking and really enjoyed each other's company.

He invites me over to his rented apartment to chill with his buddies. Thinking it is a normal practice of his, I go over. He was not afraid of PDA. I was shocked. It was not that I did not fancy him, but he was open about us.

Confused I confronted him, and he says dat we cant be an item cuz he'd cheat on me and hurt me. And he says that I'm the last person he would wanna hurt cuz I'm his princess gentle giant. (Yes, he evil...tease me as a gentle giant).

He knew me, somehow. He saw past the toughness outside. He saw me as a girl, fragile and gentle. He was so kind in all sense. And he never laid a finger indecently on me... He'd even ask permission to steal a kiss.

One day his fren asks me in mandarin if we were together. I immediately said no. And I told him about it.

Slowly, he drifted away. Withdrew.

I saw it coming, never expected more.

See, he is muslim, and I'm catholic. We both knew that.

Today I met his friend, one of his girlfriends...


She said He told them he was in a relationship with me for a week.
He never brought a girl home before me.
He only had nice things to say about me.


I was shocked.

She said they told him to end it if he was not serious with me.

About the time he drifted.

Especially if it would not have worked.

The friend is Chinese and his friend who is dating this girl is Malay. Complications there.




I did not know....:(


I'm sorry if I hurt you, mousy..
You really did give me some of the best times in my life. And you completed my birthday..Thank you. I'm sorry if I hurt you unknowingly.

Wished things were different.

things I miss...

I am missing you although it's over.
I am missing you although I've moved on.

I am missing the better times, when things were perfect
But perfection never lasts.


Literally walking in the rain.
Our stay home meals, topped with a bottle of wine.
Our drives into KL where we just bark at each other for getting lost and make up later.
The day before my birthday when you watched me sleep and wrote me the most beautiful piece of poetry.
Our first (and last) valentine's.
You over-feeding me.
Our Titas and english classes.
The days in NLDS.
Our Melaka trip.
Our evenings together.
Our quiet nights on the hill.

Good memories. I guess you finally got what you wanted, me remembering them as fond memories, not painful ones.


Walking on..

Ooo..about CRUSH

Oooooo...today is D-day...judgement day..Wenby, I'm counting on your scheme to work...somehow have a feeling that it'll backfire and he won't be frantically searching for me....:S

The plan was to make me a habit to him, den stop habit suddenly, and he'd apparently come searching. See, men have to the hunter..So I apparently need him curious about me..


You know, it's just gonna backfire..

And as sad as I'd be, I'd probably laugh my head off. :D


*eagerly awaits*

Tired

Absolutely tired...


Blood bank was really challenging today! it felt damn good to actually sweat in an air condition building!! Managed 3 direct coombs test, one indirect one, one pre-cardiac antibody screening test, and a whole lot of blood grouping!!! Fantastic!! Ooo..ran across the hospital to collect a whole load of irradiated blood, single donor platelets and the lot..:)


Now dat is what I call a satisfying day! Did not help dat the back was breaking though no thanks to tummy cramps..

No gym today, cuz it's laundry day!! Goodness, I wish myself luck! :D the pile is preeeeety large..Hahaha...


Wanted to meet the friend from holland today cuz I felt bad, but decided not to. Super broke. That's reason enough. I have to last till Thursday. Joy..


Happy, today I'll have Pearly time!!! :D

Women Health Issues

WARNING

The contents of this post may be too detailed for the faint of heart. The author shall not be responsible for feelings of *ewwness* and *ughness* at the end of it..


no animals were harmed in it's writing either..just in case you were wondering..

PLEASE do not read if you do not want "too much info" regarding female health.

Okay..so it's like this..

I've been generally happy the past few days..sometimes aesthetic!! I'm been all bubbles and giggles and sugar coated candy. Been looking forward to every message I send to CRUSH, been super excited when he texted back, been eager to hang out with my girl friends, been planning massive girl night outs, been ditching really really really super hawt *sizzling* dates for the "love" of CRUSH, been all smiles and optimism at work.....OK OK..YOU GET THE PICTURE!!


So, I went out with Club guy a few nights ago, cuz I think I've been cold enough to him and I missed having a pretty nice friend..I was all smiles, until he tries parking my car in the basement and the security guard doesnt allow him to, cuz it's past 11. So I usually just park outside when this happens. But club guy starts raising his voice and trying to intimidate the poor security guard. And when I tell him to drop it, he calls me a scardy cat. that was it! I lost my temper instantly, so bad I did not even say bye when I left him near his bike!

Then the next day, a nurse in my lab who suffers a lack of attn and spine starts saying I look free when she did not see all the work I was doing before she came in, I nearly shouted at her. I go out with Karen and Fellie, and I have a good time, and when my mom does something I explicitly told her NOT to like 6 times, I completely lost my mood and ended the call as soon as I could. And finally when I reached my apartment, my desktop refuses to start up, I call rubern to ask him what should I do. He tells me he'll call back, and when he does, I was already sobbing!

He freaked out, asking what happened, and I could not even talk! I just cried and cried and cried!!!! The last time I sobbed this hard was during the last 6 months in uni.. I could not help myself. I couldnt even get myself off the floor.

The next day (today) I go to work, and lo and behold..it's the time of the month!


This is so annoying! Ever since gym, the cycle has been more regular, and hence the PMS too! Bigger than ever!! I've never felt more "girly" in my life.. guess it's healthy.. I am happier, and more in control of my emotions, yet the magnitude of emotions when it does come is dumbfounding...

See, don't blame us women for being such mystical creatures...I swear..it's the bloody hormones...In Bridget Jones' words..."Bullocks!"

thoughts

well...it is like this..

Spoke to a lovely girl today, someone I've known for 4-5 months? And in this time I've already had quite a huge amount of respect for her..She is a devout Jehovah's witness, who is nothing like all the rumours we hear about.. She is a normal, girl next door, who is absolutely gorgeous..(and as usual, all these gorgeous babes have no idea how beautiful they are...*smacks head*)

She really holds on to her principles. She is well-read, talkative, bubbly...and married! She is 27, and looks 22 la..She doesn't club, smoke, drink. She is as sweet as sweet can be..as wondering which planet la this girl from.. :) So I was curious about her la..seemed like a person who has it all together..

One day we talked about her n her husband..they got married at 22..had the same birthday, and the same age. Her first bf. Same religion. All fairy tale like. She cooks awesome food and bakes delicious cakes..She is like the perfect Bree..

Yet, even Bree has her problems..

Today she confided dat he husband has been MIA for the past year!

I was shocked. She always spoke about him and always referred to him as her husband. He just packed and left. No closure, nothing. No contact number..
And she still lives in their rented apartment, alone although she could go back to her family.

She has no kids (thank God, in the sense she doesn't have an extra mouth to feed) and she did not have a steady income till recently. When she initially had to start paying for the flat, she was using 3/4 of her salary to do so, leaving her with less den 200 a month for the rest of her needs...


She does not have her own mode of transportation, and she works really late at night sometimes. And she realy looks so vulnerable, and her flats...goodness. I am afraid to drive there at 11pm...:S What more take the bus...I guess once you're used to it, it's kinda ok..but still........

It got me thinking about a lot of the blessings we have day to day. Some of us complain about money, family, relationships, work all the time, when the person next to us might be having hell right here on earth and is still able to plaster a smile on...

A night to count our blessings, every one of them..


Good night people! :)

L is for the way you Look at me..

I'm in love with love...yes I am!! Pearly is back!

*teeheehee*

Well, it could be partially contributed to the fact I'm crushing so hard on Crush. :D But it is I guess mostly I'm feeling more like myself these days.... with the addition of being a health freak...haha

But yea, I dare dream again! I remember the pre-Rubern days, I used to read all the jane austen books, and the other decent, classical romance novels, with no *passionate kissing* and *love-making*, but simple things like, the way he glanced, or paced up and down the room trying to get something off his chest. He long distance dat seperates two souls, but in the end that distance is bridged..happily or tragically...okok..this is too much..

But yea, it's nice to be able to watch romantic comedies and really feel happy after it instead of end up crying because of all the pain and hurt.

It's nice to believe dat that someone special is still out there...(maybe he is Crush!! :D).

It is nice to believe in loev again!

I wanna fall in love again!! :D

patience is a virtue

And one i lack, i must add....

I'm an aries. Ram.....

We ram our heads into things...I'm very direct and i go get what I want. But, yes, I've been taught to take it slow with a few things...

But it is so hard.. I just hate waiting, sitting around waiting for some thing to happen..I'm the type dat gets up and does something about it! Cannot tahan...


But yet, patience has it's good...I've come to appreciate a lot of rewards from this patience I've come to practice...a little, but it's there..getting better at it with time..
Now, back to cleaning room..Laterz

uncrushed..almost

This is typical me..

He's not taken..

The story continues...

:P

Help! I can't sleep!! Too many thoughts on the issues at home, the people, the work, the health.. Having a crush gives u dat girly light-headedness.. Guess it's kinda refreshing..or I'm plain bored

Crushed!

He has a girlfriend..sigh..

crushing, not crushed

Crushing on R!!

Random, I know..but I can't help feeling all light-headed and happy!

Nights..