He gets the easy way out, while I build from scratch. He just continues from where we parted, and I have to re-root myself, and re-build everything. I have to re-mold my world.
It pisses me off, yet I have a chance at something totally new and different. I have to take the risk and walk this path alone, but heck, it might be worth it.
Lard says I am living in the past. In truth, can we truly let go? Can you? People walk amidst us everyday, facades on, fake smiles plastered. No one can run from the past. The past haunts you, a little less each day for some, while it remains the same for the rest..some even dwell in it as it brews and simmers. This chip on every person's shoulder scratches at every relationship this person will have some day. It's part of being scarred. We can never run from it. Sure, masks work well, but some of us do not like wearing masks. We want to bare it all! Why keep it all in? Half the world's population are extroverts..and we need to express it on the outside!
Unfortunately, people do not appreciate this blatant honesty! They try to force a mask on you. They force you to say you are not okay, then they go all preachy on you!
You should let go!
You're not okie!
You have to let go!
You have to stop talking to him!
You have to start anew!
JUST DON'T THINK (Voted the most annoying piece of advice!..useless too)
These people obviously cannot sign up to be a befriender..LOL
Oh well, cannot really expect everyone to say the right things. Some people are, and will always remain, insensitive, unfeeling, unthinking kayus.
It is frustrating when you know people care for you, but they can't reach you. You stretch your hands out, and they do not know how to catch them. You scream, but only you can hear yourself!
So what would one in this situation do for herself? Now that that huge part that she worked so hard to build is gone?
Rebuild. And pray that tomorrow be a better day...
i need your help..
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