Froze

I just froze today. Tied the tourniquet, got the vein, but I kept second guessing..in the end I gave up and passed her over to my colleague without pricking her at all.

How am I gonna do this?

On the bright side, I found the bus stop. Bout 500m walk from my apartment. Body aching. But i ain't complaining. I can do this.

Weng Lee says I have to just overcome this poor "routine forehand" and stop "hitting the net" but putting all the bad mojo behind me....

I'll try, Weng Lee. Thanks for the advice...At least he listens.

Met a few more girls I can go out with. Shall go to Urbanatic next Wednesday to support Psytrus with the new girls.

J-man was supposed to take me out tonight, as expected tak jadi like at 5.30pm.. Expected it
dun care la..

I can't wait to start running again.

Shaken

Could not believe how bad I am.

I went to work, braving it all. Thinking I was gonna ace everything...next thing I knew, really could not do it.

When I first tried drawing blood, it was fine. And with more practice, it kinda got worse, but I've always had a steady hand.


Today, I could not stop my fingers from shaking. The second person was worse! I had to go to the bathroom to just be on my own...

Not too sure what to do..

Klinik Sohvindir costs a bomb!

Just my luck...


Been feeling much better of late, I went on to cook and bake n chauffeur my mom around town, leaving my with a horrible, horribly sore shoulder. Was resting at home when Tim called..He's moving in the same apartments as me...We'llbe neighbours soon!! So excited!!

Back to my story, when I was on the phone with Tim, mom started choking. She fried Ikan Parang for herself, and mom's notorious for chocking on fish bone! Reason being mom uses dentures and the plastic dentures covers the palate of her mouth, making it tough for her to feel the texture of her food.

This being a norm, i continued watching TV. After a few seconds, I realized it was longer than normal. And she came to me asking me to pull the bone out. Not having tweezers I went frantic, looking for my forceps.. Mom was adamant that I could get it out with a pin head! (these seamstresses think the world's problems can all be solved with a pin, thread and scissors!)

Told my mom it was impossible and ran upstairs to get my brother (who ignored my knocks on the door and shouts of "KOKO"..so pist!). so I ran down and told mom I have to bring her to the clinic. (Only then did it occur that my forceps were used on plants and microbes...*smacks head*)

The thing about mothers....bringing them to the clinic is like trying to bathe a cat! Getting her to the car took ages...So I finally agreed to have a look at the bone again. almost fainted when I couldnt see it this time! I told my mom to just shh it and get in the car.

So I drove to some 24 hour clinic next to Klinik Lai. I told the clinic asst very politely what was happening. She sits there with the most bored face I've encountered and said that doctor was out for lunch. I politely asks what time would the doctor be back. She doesnt look me in the eye and keeps silent. I repeat my question and she screws her face and says "Tak tau la..." so still politely and patiently I ask, roughly how long..half an hour? an hour? She shrugs talks to her friend (who during this whole time had the head rested on her palms with elbows on table...infuriating me further!!). Than without giving me any answer she picks up the phone.

Swirling! I was about to shout at them. kept my cool and called my sister in law if she had her medical equipment wit her. Unfortunately no, so we decided to go to Sohvindir...

At least the clinic assistants were helpful. As I sat down, the clinic lounge area was filled with flies. There was one of those electrical fly killing machines (dunno name), which was not switched on. Fine.

We go in, and the big Punjabi doctor sees to my mom. I tell him there is a bone, which I saw but later on disappeared. He, having an indifferent look on his face, turned to my mom, didnt even asked her to open her mouth and said, if u cant feel it wth ur finger it isnt there. I said she feels it's very much there. He says aunty tulang macam paku. or a needle. Kalau sudah cucuk, 2,3 hari mesti rasa sakit. Itu sakit saja. I started to worry...die la...this doctor also nyanyuk dy. So I lied, saying my mom said she feels its there with her finger. Then only he ushered us to the treatment room.

Thank God my sister in law comes came at the nick of time and I waited outside.

Apparently doctor was adamant bone wasnt there. My sister in law was the one to found it and took it out.




like this right, ppl in batu berendam will really die in case of emergency tell you...


Oh ya....the whole treatment cost us RM110.00 sahaja.


Hope you're having a better day.

I came home and straight went to bake a cake. It's in the oven as i type. SHuld be ready soon. Baking and cooking releases stress. Butter cake for tea. Anyone wanna drop by? :)

Hornbill Vounteer Programme 2009 (& other advertisements)

I WANT TO GO FOR IT!!!!!

You can check out the programme here

*sulking*

The programme sounds sound. Pretty similar to how it was in the turtle conservation programme in mlk (which I want to hep with as well unfortunately have limited amount of leave..need to save it for the Perth trip I'm planning. Geram). It seems well organized for those interested, so do lend yur time and support if you have no other more important plans (Yes our ecosystem is important ok?)

Anyways, Psytrus and Daniel made into the finals of the Acoustic Showdown...first in the duo/group category.. Do check it out at Urbanattic, Capsquare, June 3rd, 2009. Sounds good eh? Anyone wanna join me??:)

Also, saw an ad in the Star about a play in KLPac called Belacan, Geragok and other Prawns..For those unfamiliar with Malacca and our very beautiful people (ahem *hint hint*) and culture, a rough way of referring to the Malays was Belacan, and the Portuguese Eurasians was Geragok (both terms highly discouraged to use...very rude), but Malaccans being Malaccans, marah tu betul betul sayang tau.... :) You can read the summary of the play below. Caught my attention, title itself got me bursting into laughter. :D


Let's not even start on MPO (but I shall anyways!!) Will highlight a few that did catch my attention, with easy to appreciate pieces..

The Classical Clown, June 21, 2009, sounds fun...a mime act accompanied by an orchestra (fancy that!!), Age of elegance, 4th n 5th July (pieces are pleasant..not too heavy), and (this I must catch!!) Haydn's The Season, with the Swiss Chamber Choir!! Me had goosebumps listening to them..Go youtube the pieces k..malas dy..although I think they sing in Estonian..:S You could check it out here tho.. Will be going for these shows myself..most probably...still teman-less.. lemme noe..

Wished you were here Lydia..:(

Will update again laterz... gotta go to the dentist for tooth fillings...accident causing me massive dental bills...

I'll be driving life!!??

Yes, I've booked a Viva...plan is, since I've wrecked my mom's car, aka MAF, I ought to replace it (no pressure from the family, don't get me wrong). So, if MAF is to be saved, I shall drive the Viva for a while and mom can have MAF back. When I'm ready, I'll trade in MAF for a Myvi, and mom will get a brand new car.

However, if MAF is beyond redemption, then I'll be using the Viva, till I can work my ass to get another Myvi.


Scary eh?


Oh well, everything and anything is possible (possible an indication of a higher chance of success, not a definite one though..), and have to rely on my back, and faith to pull through.


Viva is gonna be white again.. :D Me like the brand new white..I don't quite like the other range of colours provided...


She's quite cute, although MAF is definitely more exotic (trying not to hurt MAF's feelings while she tengah nazak!!). Unfortunately Cheese's car is already named Frost.

Yes, Cheese's car...

is named after Emma Frost..

So I gotta figure out a different name for her...come to think about it...Eng Onn and I haven't named out place...we just call it our crib...it's too cliche la... Hmmm....now all we have to do is.....*think think think* (those who watch My friends, Tigger and Pooh would know what I'm talking about...)

and for those who don't...enjoy!! :)

Lucky me!!

Why you may ask??

Ans:

Intelligent women, especially women with emotional intelligence, enjoy better sex, and foreplay (with their...I mean, OUR fantasizing abilities!!)

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Read an article in the Star today. Can't remember title, but when I got home (from nilai), went hunting for the same article on thestar online....unfortunately could not find it. However, the article above is probably what inspired the one in the Star anyways...:)

So yeah...BOOYAH! We may not be fantastic lookers, but we're definitely..err..luckier in bed! :P So boys...the next time you see emotionally balanced young ladies in lab coats and black rimmed glasses (hint hint), better look twice! You just might be missing out!! HAHA

*SUPER GRIN*

Anyhoo....been to the workshop which towed my car. I degloved my chin and chipped (and broke a tooth) my teeth because the steering wheel was pushed towards me due to the impact. The engine is in working order, which means, my car could be saved!

*choirs of angels singing,
"Hallelujah"*

Unfortunately, it all depends on the insurance assessor.. We unfortunately lose rm400 as my name was not listed in the people covered for driving the car either..*grumbles*

Just a note, for those who have not bought car insurance. The mechanic of 20 years said that AIG has the best customer service. They are very strict in assessing damaged cars and cars repaired after accidents in the interest of heir clients.

Will confirm/debunked this statement soon.


Hope you have a more care-free worriless day as to compare to me. :)



signing out,

Mrs John Abraham. :P
(the whole article's work k..)

Tooth fairy

I wonder ho0w much would she give for a broken extracted tooth....hmm

Just extracted the first premolar tooth next to my canine tooth...my upper left one...so now I have a very very imperfect smile....:( and scarred legs...:( my two favourite features gone!!

Thank God I do not have my own camera yet, or I'd be disgusting you with photos!! Hahah

On the bright side, now I shall have to hide from public view for sometime...and would help me save some money so I can now pay for the damages.....Aih...


This really sucks..


But I am still happy being a bum...spoke to my "nephew" Ben in Germany. Nice to get closer to the family...:) He is the one who called me a bum in the first place cuz he has to go to work...he's just jealous....:P


So that's about it for today....drowsy....need...sleep.....nights...

Citrus??

Psytrus

This is a very interesting person I came across a few weeks ago. Over a few drinks, we've learned a little about each other's lives and today I just feel like blogging (ranting) about personal satisfaction..

This guy wakes up each day, looking forward to enjoying his work...literally! He probably wakes up with that devilish grin plastered over his face, saying, "oh yay! more work!!" with genuine enthusiasm...because he loves his job! He LOVES his job!


I would consider myself happy, contented at the most with my job. I would not say I wake up with that grin all over my face! (Partially because I have a sweet smile, not a devious one..heh). I am happy to have a stable job with a good company...but that's about it. My dreams of living that crazy life of mine is naught but a dream.. It is embarrassing to even spill what my wildest dream is! :D

But I must say, not everyone has the guts to chase that dream of theirs... And most of us have learned to be contented with this semi-perfect life we've built. Sometimes, it is shattered, but always ready to be re built...in another semi-perfect way...Am I making any sense?


I almost had that perfection, semi-perfection I mean, and the accident burst my comfort zone...now I guess hav to rebuild it, and learn to be happy again....it is not impossible, but yea, it'll probably need a lot of adjustments and it shall be achieved...


Psytrus, well.....all I can say is,, hats off to you, prince! :) You're living your life! cheers!


Check his profile and music out in facebook, youtube, and myspace....pretty good stuff. :)


signing out!

pebblesssssssss

Crash Boom bang

Well, as some of you may already know, I met with an accident last Saturday, may 9th, 2009.

simple really..

I did not have enough sleep, was aching from influenza vaccination and was too eager to get home....for thw wrongest reasons..

started my drive at 6am...fell asleep on the wheel, woke up, saw huge white thingy dat looked like the back of a truck, slammed brakes and (closed my eyes..felt like a dream) woke up to some strange (but kind) malay man who was trying to wake me up....at this time I was laying at the side of the road...

Degloved the mandible...which in lay man's term meant that I skinned my jawline...miraculously without tearing any tendon, and had some deep cuts on the legs....oh yea, chipped lots of my teeth..spent the next few days sitting pieces of my teeth out.

The impact of the safety belt was bad as well....my chest and abs hurt (now I even have blood clots lining my lower abs...feels like little balls under my skin...weird) and having bad toothahes...with the occasional bleeding stitches if hey choose not to ooze out some weird serum dat sometimes look like ous (my sister in law sys it is not infected...oh yea...she is a doctor...so yea...she's qualified)


I am lucky to be alive.

Very lucky.

Surprisingly, I did not experience the whole "my life flashed beforee me" experience....was squeezing my brains trying to recollect my emotions...I swear, if I died that day...it would have been so...insignificant.Like,it just felt like a dream. Nothing else.


Got me thinking...if I died...the only regret would be that I did not manage to revamp my life as I decided to just before the accident. And when I was in hospital, I wanted my family, and close friends. Kamini Veena and Kenny were such angels to come all the way. So did Cheese...thank you! I really wanted to see you guys.

Rubern, I wasn't sure...but I was glad he was there. I felt like I could just close my eyes and rest when he came.He tends to take my troubles away (when he is not causing them, that is..hehe...sorry for the pun, Ruby..:))

but more importantly,, I knew who cared, and who didn't. at the end of the day, the people who were always no 1 in my life were the ones who cared the most!

My family needs no mention....I love them to bits, and they'd give their lives for me...that I KNOW, and I appreciate...I have the best family in the world!!!


My closest, oldest friends....Kamini, Veena, Kenny, Darian, Joshua, Cheese, Karen, Bryan, Alfie, Fellie, Gin Jhen, Shaun, even Eunice..they were immediately there....I was so shocked that Arvind and Nurul came all the way too...and not to mention mommy Grace's scoldings..Djameel came to the scene!

but the accident brought me closer to an old friend, my "lil bro", Paul..


After all these years..I never knew that little effort made to reach out to a friend would mean so much...now I know...and he promised never to shut me out again! One of the many things the accident came in handy with....


Oh yes.....2 weeks MC is awesome!!!!!! :) happinessssssssss....I swear...


Anyways,sitting up is painful....need to lay down...Thanks for the many many well wishes...for those I missed out, my apologies.....head still...not functioning too well.......(ct scan came back normal I must add)

Thank you again, my angels...:)

and thank you Anyi for protecting me...I know you were there...I know it..

Phlebotomy

Well, I had a pretty rough day at work today (the first time I will admit to that). reason being Attempt #2 at drawing blood was a miserable failure, attempt #3 & #4 were near misses, attempt #6 was sheer luck and attempt #7 was painful!! :S

According to Wikipedia:

Phlebotomy is the act of drawing blood either for testing or transfusion. It is a skill employed by physicians and many professionals in allied health fields, including nurses, medical assistants, paramedics, cardiac physiologists (UK) and clinical laboratory scientists.

So this is what I am to do for the whole of May...Wish me luck... I really need it..:S

Line-up for today:

It talks about the "wheels of health" complete with an assessment sheet on how healthy you are. Dr Walt Larimore considers a Health to be best defined by WHO - Health is a state of complete physical, mental and social well-being and not merely the absence of disease or infirmity.

However, the also thinks that Spirituality is the fourth wheel that completes a person. As I have only started today, before my Phlebotomy Disaster, I am very interested to know how is he going to fortify his philosophy. He has so far been giving random, poorly elaborated cases to prove his point. I will just see how it goes I guess, cause the concept does interest me.

Then, I'll have to finish the movies I have rented:

(Half way, so I hope I finish it...:S)

Gin Jhen recommended this....we shall we......:P looks very familiar...

DISNEY!! :D

Oh yes, this is because I found this awesome place where I can rent vcds/dvds...makes my boring life a WHOLE lot better...:P And due date is tmr!! :S

Good luck to me again!


Signing out,

Mrs John Abraham

(Yes, it's still John Abraham season...:P)

Getting better

Settling.

I have a more fixed routine now. And it helps. Mentally stronger, emotionally healthier...physically too.. Gotta work on the spiritual aspects though..Life is almost perfect right now. Almost. :)


Although it has been long since I have sat down with my Bible and prayed on a passage and meditate, I have always been talking to Him. The beauty of believing in what I believe in is that your God is your friend, your brother, your father, your purpose, your happiness, your everything! And I thank the Lord for giving me the faith I have. It is so easy to just push all my thoughts aside and talk to Him, in the car, in the lab, on the treadmill... It is almost like small conversations with this person who is with you at all times, going through everything you are going through. Still, I need something more solid to complete my life.


And this is the beauty of it all... I have come to accept that my life as it is now is complete, especially with more time in prayer. I have been keeping away from most vices, and I feel very very inclined to reconcile with Him. And it is always a joyous when that divide is bridged.

Just finished Tuesdays with Morrie (2 evenings of nothing to do in my lab did the job. :)). There was an evening where Coach talked about forgiveness. It's everywhere, the hint to forgive.


I know I am hurting the two of them (ex and his current gf). And a very wise person told me that the reason the ex is unhappy has a lot to do with the fact that I have not truly forgiven them. Probably the same reason why there is unhappiness in that relationship. Could not believe the kid left the rally I attended just because she could not bear to see the hate in my eyes...When the fact is, I know she would b so uncomfortable to see me, that I would have just avoided her and discarded the fact that she was there in the first place. Her presence do not bother me anymore. It's so trivial. Besides I can have a professional relationship with her, just not a personal one. Is that not good enough for now? I cannot say I hate them.. I care for them, I ask about them, just that I just do not want to come to terms with the fact they are together.

My ex has gone to the point of blaming himself for what I have turned out to be. But i told him that it was my choice, a choice probably made easier by the circumstances, but mine in the end. I have come to terms with most of the theory of things...but living it out is so challenging, and that is exactly where I need Him for the strength to do it..it is beyond human abilities..need divine help..

But yes, life is better. Life is perfect already. Almost I mean. I hope I have reached the point where I am happy being single and me. Been doing all the girlie thingies that make me happy....So what if I am a girlie girl! :)

I have been watching all the chick flicks, been pampering myself with long showers, nice perfume, facial care... that makes me happy. I do not care if some would like to think me shallow..So be it. I know what I am good at and where my weaknesses are. I am complete as I am..and with this new security, life is getting better.

Anyways, been on a movie spree....watched this show..Agnus, thongs and perfect snogging. Cute show for teenage girls. For us older ones, it is a good reminder of the teenage years..much happier times. :)

Very carefree, and dreaming was about all we did. Lol. Fun no brainer for me. :) The rest are not really worth mentioning...though I must tell Veena dat i have FINALLY watched Dhoom....not 2 mind you..the first one!!


I'm so in Love with John Abraham...He's my husband, btw...:)
Isn't he a darling?

Signing out,

Mrs John Abraham! :P